I HATE SOMEONE I LOVE !
8:51 AM
Stomach pain `
Headache `
Heartache `
7:56 AM
Perangai mcm sial ~
&& again, today nothing interesting. Except fr one thing that i cried. -_-
Friday, January 29, 2010
10:45 AM
Frm what i find out,
guest ; 218.186.8.253
passer by ; 218.186.8.253
Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap ?!
Asl samer ip address siol nie guest & passer by ? Oh , samer org ehh ? Hah ! Uuuu , bochui ~
[ b. see hw fat & ugly i am. ]
Hello ~ it`s already 3.04am , & i`m still not asleep . Cant sleep . Nk laksa ! Nk laksa ! B , aku nk laksa ! && anw , tadie bby called . Terkejot akuh . Heee . Rindu jgak dier pat akuh . We talked . Soo happilyyyyyyyy ~ His voice mcm different . Haha , da lamer tk dgr suare dier lah kan . && i want meet him . So , since he cant meet me . Maybe tmr i`ll be meeting him at his place . Maybe , not sure . B , i want hug & kiss kisss you laaaaaarh .
B ! Nie aku peyh scandal ! Scandal aku tido lagy senonoh . Tk mcm scandal kau yg kat bawa tuh . Haha . Tido mcm aper , terkangkang . Scandal aku lagy cute . Tk mcm scandal kau , tak cute langsong siul . Haha . Scandal kau ketiak hitaaaaam ~ AHAHAHA .
BBBB! Iloveyousomuch tawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! ~
Ok ler. Till here aja okay? Mlas nk buat panjang2. ;D
2:01 AM
I feel so lost. You know i cant do without you.
Labels: I wana die
1:51 AM
Its not the end, right? Oh god, please tell me its not. Thursday, January 28, 2010
6:10 PM
Hellloooo ?
I woke up very very the early today .
&&& i`m gona veryyyyyy bored today . Haha .
Why ? Cause i`m gona stay home the whole day , looking after the kids .
Sis they all , going out laah . Dhen got noone want to accompany me . Tsk tsk , sedih sia .
Jaja they all , go out . Baby , tnk meet me, again !
Haiz . Nehmind la . At least still got the kids hor , can layan all their merepek . Nyahah .
&&&&& i dont know why ,
But i feel very agitated .
Im angry at someone else , but nnt , marah2 ngan org laen . Bodoh kan ? Ahaha .
This little firman uh , giler sia ..
Tibe2 he go infront of the tv , dhen he laughed , "Ahaha. Ahaha. Ahaha." Giler kan ? Haha .
Cause he can see his reflection on the tv , dhen suker , dier ketawer . Haha .
Yst , i ask bby come here . But , he tanak .
Tkpe lorh .
` Ader pon mcm tkder jer . Pfft ! ~
Bodoh siak nie buntal .
Dont know what to say redi , bye . -_-
8:59 AM
Today ;
Nothing special . Very boring . Kay bye ~
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
7:57 PM
I was waiting the whole night .
12 am ; no msg frm you .
130 am ; still no msg .
300 am ; still no msg .
530 am ; still NO msg .
600 am ; mseh tk msg .
tngu peh tngu , bat aku flat .
aku sanggop tngu kau peh msg , tapi kau tk msg2 pon .
ngantok aku tngu .
haiyo .. tkpe lah berok .
now , its 1201 pm , jap lagy nk go take nini &arish frm school .
ok lah . will update again . tata ! ~
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
9:21 PM
HELLO WELLO JELLO MELLO LO-LO-LO-LO-LO !
I happy. Haha. Cause i gt new hp redi. Nyahahaha! Bessssst nyerhh.
&& also, tmr.. Meet bby. Tmr, 9Mnthsary! Yay meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Sat? 6 Feb? Sentosa?
Monday, January 25, 2010
10:26 PM
im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad. im so sad.
8:34 PM
imissyou, so much. do you know that? i bet you dont. you`re just busy with your life, & forgetting bout me. like you see, now.. it`s only after 2 weeks of not meeting dhen bru nk meet. like what? i guess, it`s just because of thurs is our 9th monthsary that you want to meet. kan? klao tk, tnk jmper kan? see, there`s something amiss. i feel so empty.
ignore my post`s time & date. sumer salah. it`s a day behind. today supposingly is the 26th. but the date, 25th.
Labels: two more days.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
10:41 AM
Three More Days To Another Special Day ~
[ Pic Above Is 4E10 ] ; Who Is Also My 3E10 Classmate .
The Above Pic Is Them On Graduation Day . Too Bad I`m Not There . Not Allowed To Be There Pon . Sedih Kan ? Tsk Tsk . So Anw , Frm What I Knw , They`re Standing There Listening To Qing Xiang`s Speech . Don`t Know What Speech Tah . I Miss Them All , You Knoww ;(
&& This Pic Above , Is My Ex Form Teacher . Chey ! Ex Form Teacher Eh ? Haha .
That`s Mr Stanley Ang Anw ..
Pic Above Is , Mr Sky Phua & My Friend ; Heyaati .
Pic Above Is , Mr Sky Phua & My Friend ; Heyaati . Mr Phua ; Maths Teacher . The Best ;D
Okay . Enough Bout That ..
Today , Woke up At 10 .. && When I Was Sleeping , Asek Terbgn Jer Check Msg , Tapi Tkder . Tngu Bby Aku Peyh Msg Whaaaat . Eh B ~ I Was Worried Okay . Ngoooook Kau ! Uh , Anw .. After That ... Arnd 1 Plus ... Mandi .. Siap2 . Go My Mom`s Shop . Pastuh I Go Complain , Ckp Nan Dier Nk Hp Baru .. Cause You Know What , My Kakak & Adeq Dpt Hp Bru . & Me ? Tak Okay ! Tak Fair Whaaaat , Correct ? Dhen ... BLAHBLAHBLAH . Mlas Nk Citer ~
Bby text Me At Night You Knw ! Pkol 8 Plus ! Malam Aru Nk Msg ! Grrr ~
Tapi , Da Dpt Msg Dier , Lega Siket Hati Akuh Nie .
Yahh , & Aniwaes ..
Now Da 2.53AM ,
Aku Nk Tido ~ Penat ! Kay Bye ! Haha .
Friday, January 22, 2010
11:26 PM
Thursday, January 21, 2010
11:57 PM
* Look Up * [ Click On The Pic To Enlarge ]
Haha ! I Laugh Sia When I Look At This Pic . Bile Time Pri One .
Muker Kontol Seyh Satu Satu . HAHAHHA .
The First Row , Sumer Mcm Soccer Players Sia . Haha .
Funny Larh Weyh !
9:59 PM
I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?
I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who's hardest right
And I'm looking for someone
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Want to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?
Take for grant
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?
I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who's hardest right
And I'm looking for someone
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Want to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?
Take for grant
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
8:30 PM
See that babi`s face up there ? Urh , imisshim so much you know . It`s been a week or so we dint meet . Fuck kan dier . Bodoohhhh . & baby , nw you know hw i feel kan ? Good . You know , i miss those times we had . Ingt tk kiter uat epok2 smpai pagy ? Haha . Dhen da tuh , mesti order mac . I miss those times . & i miss your hugs . I miss your kisses . In one weeks` time , it`s gona be our 9monthsary . & yet , things are soo not okay . Everything seem to be so different now . Everything ...
& plus that , i`m scared . Real scared .
Rmb i said that i`ll still love you no matter what ? Yaaaa , no matter what . I`ll forever love you .
12:39 AM
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
11:03 PM
Why must every stupid shits happen at this point of time ?
9:41 PM
I Always Blame Myself Fr Everything That Has Happen. I Give In To Others..
Yes, It`s Hard.. You Know.
Noone Understands..
I`m Scared, I`m Terrified. I Don`t Know Who To Talk To. I Don`t know What to Do Next. I`m Just So Confused.. I Feel Like Running Away To A Place Where Noone Knows Me. Im Soo Scared. Only Thing That I Can Do Is Only Cry In The Night..
See This Toddler Up There. Cute Aye? I Treat Him Like My Own Already, Even Though He`s Not Really Mine.. Every Night, Before He Sleeps, I Kiss His Forehead.. Every Night I Sleep, I Would Hug Him. When His Mama`s Not Arnd, I Would Be There To Comfort Him & All.. I Wondering, What If I Have One Now, A Cute BabyBoy..?
6:18 PM
Found This Somewhere. Haha.
2:38 AM
* pic fr the day. pfft, ignore my face. *I Miss Love. Call Me Lah B. Rindu Siak Aku Ngan Kau.
:D
Saturday, January 16, 2010
9:57 AM
I want a whole body massage. My back hurts alot. My foot hurts. My leg hurts. My hand hurts. My arm hurts. My palm hurts. My fingers hurts. So basically everything hurts laah.
Seriously, i feel like crying. Pain all over & there`s noone to ask help frm. & now, my stomach starting its nonsense again. Fcuk. Saaaaaaket siak perot akuh nie. I feel like taking a knife & stabbing my stomach, so the pain will go away. Hah, stupid. Klau gituh, lagy saket kan? Bodo nyerh akuh. SAKET! SAKET! SAKET! SAKET! SAKET GILER SIOL! :'(
6:41 AM
Sometimes i just hate myself.
Hello readers. I dint sleep well last night, due to my stomach cramps. Dont knw why cramp. Saket giler.. Hmm, this morning i woke up, & dhen blahblahblah. Go buy food. Ate nasi lemak. But, tk habes. These few weeks, i`ve not been eating well. Not that im dieting.. But, ti eh.. Klau da mkn siket jer, da full. Da tuh, lau da full, msok lagy, tros rase cm nk termuntahkn sumer alek. I dont know if i`ve lose weight anot, cause yst my sis ckp, "asl kau kurus? isap dadah eh?" Haha. Kay, part isap dadah dah mepek. Bukan nk show-off. Cumer trying to say that im not feeling well. Haha. & yea well today, i just ate that nasi lemak lorh. Pastu no appetite nk eat anything. Till now, nvr eat anything. & my stomach still hurts. & oh.. before i forget.. Today`s my elder sis`s bday. My mom bought the cake. Its nice. Have the pics, but blom tarok pat comp.. Errrm, & tmr is my little firman`s bday. Soo, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUU BOTH! ;D
That`s all lah okay. Tired. Kepale peninggg laaah. && about me & baby kan, i dont know. & i dont wana talk about it. Im just waiting for him...
Friday, January 15, 2010
11:02 AM
My body doesnt feel right. Baby, do something.
Im not at home. Will be back on sun i guess. I miss baby. Its 3.05am. But, he`s not online. Usually he is. But, nehmind lah. Maybe he go out ker aper lah. Ntah lah. Duno what he doing.
Kay bye. Im sick!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
5:48 AM
Go have your fun.
Well, today.. Dint do much. Woke up at 1pm. Dhen go proceed to read my book. Jaja text me, ajak lepak, but dint reply.. Pp8 low & anyway, dint have the mood to go out. Maybe nxt tym. Uhm, soo.. I`ve finished reading the book, which is called, BFG [ Big Friendly Giant ]
Boring jer the book. Hmm. Mom came home at 3 plus.. Dhen at 5 was suppose to go fetch acap frm sch.. Dhen got nothing to do.. Bareng2 jap.. Smpai tertido seyh nk tngu smpai pkol 5. Hah! Tv pon bodo, da rosak.. Dhen cnt watch tv. Like what like that.. Dhen da amek acap, at home do nothing. Pkol 6.30, gy kedai bawa ngan my sis. Dhen da go home. Till now, nothing to do. Sooo bored.. Serious... Tak bedek. Mcm nk kluar gtuk. Haha. Uhmmm..
Okla. Nothing more to say.
Bye! ;D
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
2:55 AM
I've changed my backgrnd. How? Nice?
Heeee. I likeeeeee it. Fr me, so nice. Haha.
So anw, i just woke up. I slept at 5 plus in the morning just now.
Baby funny sia, he ask off the lights.. Dhen he nvr sleep. Play game. Gong gong kans? I dont know what time he slept. Now, he's still sleeping. Cuttteeeee taw biler dier tga tido. && now im hungry. I want eat. But, want wait fr baby. && just now i wake him up, ask him eat with me. Dhen he say, "tnk mkn ngan you. nk tido." Hmmmm.
Im so bored. Nothing to doooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
Kay bye.
Will upate again very soon.
Monday, January 11, 2010
6:02 AM
Baby! Can`t you see that i`m feeling uneasy? Please, please.. Will you come & hug me. I really need that hug to feel better. Pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase!
I`m feeling so miserable. I`m begining to think that i`m going to lose you.
I want cry so loud, that the whole house can hear my sorrowness.
12:06 AM
B! B! READ what i have to say,
"Once a liar, always a liar!"
Nyahahahhaa! Kay dah. Stop reading.
Hoooooooooooooooooooooooola! ;D
Current mood ; Bored. Sad. Fcuked up!
& i`m currently chatting with my darling jaja/my cute BabyDotFee/Emily-new friend! (:/Anashawty. Shared some stories with jaja. Cried! Oh myyyy, i cried. Haha. Whatever. It`s 4.10pm. & this baby is still sleeping. Snoring, mcm pig! Haha. I feel like punching his face, to wake him up.
Eh-eh, wait. Im hungry. Im thirsty. I want some coke, please. Jaja! Cpat uat delivery. The the FEDEX! ;D Haha, merepek seyh.
Okay, basically, dint do much.
Chat/Blog.
I dont have much to update.
So, till here jer lah.
&&&&&&& looking forward to chat with yinyin.
Add me soon & fast! Haha. Jk.
Anw my cuttest sayang, WANDY.
I was the one who deleted your cntcts at msn.
But, haha. So surprise you could add all back in one night. Now ader 92 cntcts eh boy? Heeeee.
Nk chat/nk add, buat ah. Go to hell. (:
I feel like smacking you now. Can?
But alamak, see your cute face tga tido, tk jadie. MUAAAHAHAHAH!
Tell me ;
Whats the diff between,
'Sorry for what you did.' & 'Sorry for making someone cry'.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
12:33 PM
BIGGEST FATTEST LIAR, once again. (;
9:38 AM
I FEEL DEVASTATED, i guess.
Correct tak the spelling? Haha.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
8:49 AM
I`m so stupid sia .
I can`t do things right .
At my own home & even at bby`s crib ..
Do everything salah .
I just hate myself .
Sorry ehh , not emo-shiting .
But , it`s true .
People who know me ,
Will know how clumsy & stupid I am .
I wish I wasn`t even born to this world .
Have to go through embarrassment all the time .
You ask me to do this , & when I do wrongly ,
You call me stupid .
That`s why I don`t like helping people .
I wana leave everything behind me . & leave all the pain behind .
I hate my life .
Nothing has ever make me happy .
Or nothing that i`ve done have made me feel satisfied .
&& one more thing ,
Please urh ,
I don`t want to be as label ,
“ONLY USE WHEN NEEDED” .
You knw ,
It would be great if someone can be my listening ear .
That`s the only thing I want now .
I can`t stand the heartpain .
Even baby ,
He doesn`t understands . & he won`t listen to my nonsense .
Seee , I told you i`ve got noone .
Luckily there`s my blog ,
Where I could like , pour out all my feelings ..
If not , I would not know what to do .
Cry all night ? Hmmmm .
When the time I din`t when home .
Who cares ? Tell me . Did anyone ? Well , I don`t know .
When I din`t want to study anymore . DID anyone cares ?
Like again , NO right ?
Forever noone will care lah kan .
I need a pair of listening ears .
Anyone ? Haha .
I can`t do things right .
At my own home & even at bby`s crib ..
Do everything salah .
I just hate myself .
Sorry ehh , not emo-shiting .
But , it`s true .
People who know me ,
Will know how clumsy & stupid I am .
I wish I wasn`t even born to this world .
Have to go through embarrassment all the time .
You ask me to do this , & when I do wrongly ,
You call me stupid .
That`s why I don`t like helping people .
I wana leave everything behind me . & leave all the pain behind .
I hate my life .
Nothing has ever make me happy .
Or nothing that i`ve done have made me feel satisfied .
&& one more thing ,
Please urh ,
I don`t want to be as label ,
“ONLY USE WHEN NEEDED” .
You knw ,
It would be great if someone can be my listening ear .
That`s the only thing I want now .
I can`t stand the heartpain .
Even baby ,
He doesn`t understands . & he won`t listen to my nonsense .
Seee , I told you i`ve got noone .
Luckily there`s my blog ,
Where I could like , pour out all my feelings ..
If not , I would not know what to do .
Cry all night ? Hmmmm .
When the time I din`t when home .
Who cares ? Tell me . Did anyone ? Well , I don`t know .
When I din`t want to study anymore . DID anyone cares ?
Like again , NO right ?
Forever noone will care lah kan .
I need a pair of listening ears .
Anyone ? Haha .
Saturday, January 2, 2010
9:12 AM
I feel like crying. Thinking bout the stuffs that have happen between me &
♥. The sad ones.. The happy ones. && Im thinking.. Do you still care bout my feelings.. Now, you always do things that hurts me. But, ape bole buat lah kan.
♥. The sad ones.. The happy ones. && Im thinking.. Do you still care bout my feelings.. Now, you always do things that hurts me. But, ape bole buat lah kan.
Can only bersabar. Right?
Those who dont like reading my post, go to hell uh.
Dont read dhen.
Labels: I`m sad
8:38 AM
I`ll Try. To Not Be Hurt. Okay? Good Enough?I`m Begining To NOT Understand You.
This Year, 2010..
- I want YOU to make me feel that i`m special.
- I need a better you.
Haiyah.. I Myself Dont Know What I Want.
Klah Bye. -.-