My dear,
Muhammad Amirul Azmirwan..
Someday, you`ll read my blog & know whats going on in your mama`s life..
Well, first & foremost,
I want you to know that i really love you alot.
Please stay by my side always & never ever make me sad, when you`re all grown up okay, sayang.
Today, was the worst day i guess.
Mama & papa fought again.
& you know sayang, i hurt my foot. It hurts. Blue black. :'(
I dont know whats the problem with us.
Is it my attitude? Haiz..
I dont know why i was so, over-protective over your papa.
Maybe just because im scared that history will repeats itself..
Im very very sad. Im even crying right now, while typing this.
It hurts alot, baby.
Papa was so furios with mama just now.
I hate him so much just now, but at the same time.. I really really cant let go,
Cause i really love him so much.
If only he would understands why i did this & that..
Now, im even more scared..
Im afraid he`ll leave..
But, i hope so not,
Cause you`re the one whose gona have to bear the consequences later on..
& i dont want that, my darling..
I dont know what else to say already..
Im just very very very very sad.. :(